GAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I'm still waiting for my godamn dessert.

Meanwhile, I've been served a giant plate of college applications mixed with a smattering of nursing school applications. I swear, if this freaking applications process will kill me way before the prerequisites and the program ever will!

The more I find out, the more I feel like crap and more time I feel like I have wasted. I also feel like a loser because my grades aren't THAT awesome. I am so nervous...so scared! How am I ever going to be able to afford this? How am I ever going to be able to get the energy? I just have the biggest feeling that something HUGE is going to go wrong and everything will end up blowing up in my face like it always does!

I AM SO FREAKING STRESSED OUT RIGHT NOW!!!!!! And my parents don't even care!!!!!! I am totally alone!!!!! :(

Ha..haaaaaaah.

Life has a funny way of working out whatever is least expected.

So funny, that you want to pop head like a pimple! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

If Facebook didn't exist, it would have been a LOOOOONG time before I even found out. Argh. Effing Facebook.

Oh, and P.S. I am transferring to CSUCI next year. Yay!

And P.P.S. I just became part of Seher, the UCSB belly dance company!

Other than that...life has been a plate full of bad food.

Meh.

What the eff, mate?

Good news: My apathy went away.
Bad news: My emotion is invested in the wrong person.

This, ladies and gentlemen, would be called a pickle.

FUDGE! :(

Apathy.

My apathy scares me more than anything.

Me to myself: "Heeeelllllo!!!! Is anyone in there?"

The lights are on. Nobody seems to be home.