When will I?

If there is one thing life is trying to teach me, it's to shut the hell up and mind my own business. No matter who it is.

I keep fighting this lesson to be learned. I want to help and change so many lives and help people learn from their mistakes. All it does is get me in trouble every godamn time. Then I get angry from frustration because everything is out of my control and I cannot DO anything!

Life throws this scenario at me the most. Second is irony, which has a lot of relation with the first.

When will I learn to let go and live my own life without the burdens of everyone else?

Did you know this?

If you smoke when you're pregnant and/or when you breast feed:
- THC (and its metabolites) does cross the placenta
- your baby will have a higher chance of SIDS
- you will have a higher risk of miscarriage
- your baby will be at risk to have a slower reaction time and a delay in cognitive development
- your baby will be at risk of developing nervous system disorders
- carbon monoxide (found in cigarette AND marijuana smoke) increases your baby's risk of birth defects and your risk of having a still born (among MANY other things)


Despite what YOU may read, there is still a correlation in some studies. Regardless of the risk, my question to women out there is: Why would you even take the risk?


I am baffled by some people's decisions. But, I suppose that's why I am me and they are them.

I love you.

Even though she hates me, I feel at peace with myself for saying what I said. Someone had to say something and now I look like the bad guy because I am the only one who chose to do so. It may take a while for her to realize is was out of love and care, but either way, I am glad I said it. Even if I am the only one being real to her face. Many others think like me, but for whatever reason do not speak up.

Besides, I would have been a bad person had I not expressed my concern. I regret not saying it before to someone else and I will not do it again. It haunts me every day. At least now, I feel I can sleep at night.

One day, she will remember what I said. She can banish me from her life all she wants but I will always be waiting because I know she is going to need my help someday.

I love you and I wish you strength, open-mindedness, and courage through this time of your life.