Evil.

I've lost this battle. I cannot do it anymore.

It was easy to think you could become insignificant to me. It was harder to actually treat it that way. I've pushed you out of my life as far as I could possibly reach hoping that one day all would cease to exist. I was hoping that maybe one day, everything would go away and apologies would be exchanged. Neither of those days has yet to come.

Instead of the situation ceasing to exist, some friends of mine have ceased to exist in my life. And a part of my relationship has ceased to exist. I've been pretending too long and been fighting too hard. It's unnecessary. It's exhausting. And I frankly cannot do it anymore.

You are not in my life and yet you still find a way to ruin it. It's like you've strategically planted a bomb and I can hear the ticking to detonation but the bomb is no where to be found. How do I rid myself of your evil? How many times must I cleanse? For how long do I have to campaign myself to my friends? For how long must the issue linger over my head in my relationship? What price do I have to pay to make you disappear? Why, in the first place, is it my price to pay?

You've turned people against me and for what cost to you? To make yourself look worthy? To win the body count? Well then, you've won. You've topped me. There is no longer a need to compete because there is no competing with you. You worm your way into everything and somehow come out successful in nearly everything you do. How is that? I have the hardest time wondering how anyone could see you in a good eye. You're murky. You're in slim light. You're true colors sometimes show but they are quickly covered with empty words. You're a shadow of a man.

I hold so much anger and frustration because of you. You make my life so difficult and I am so ready to see you leave this continent. To not walk on the same soil as you will be so relieving. But, alas, upon your return this will all resume because that's how you are. Evil.

And that says a lot, because I didn't believe in evil until I saw you.