The Heart Of It All

So I had a rough weekend. Took one of those Olympic dives into the dark pool of negativity. Good thing I can swim, otherwise I would have been a goner. And also due to the fact that my Life Preserve boyfriend was around.

Anyway, I didn't eat or sleep for two days. But I am back and worked some thoughts out for myself.

I got angry last night and when my boyfriend suggested I turn to my Tarot cards for support, I screamed, "They don't even work!" BIIIIIG mistake. Of course, I was just yelling out of pure confrontation. I didn't even mean it. Today, after I started to feel better, I turned to them about a subject I have been worrying about for some time. They were not happy with me. Here is how the quarrel went down:

Q: Should I bring one of my cats to SB?

A: Reversed Six of Wands ("indefinite delay, fear, apprehension, disloyalty, superficial benefit, inconclusive gain")

Q: I have a hard time understanding, could you elaborate?

A: Reversed Seven of Swords ("arguments, quarrels, incertain counsel or advice, circumspection, slanders, babbling.")

Q: Is it fair to bring one of my 4 cats to SB?

A: Ten of Swords ("ruin, pain, affliction, sadness, mental anguish, desolation, tears, misfortune, trouble, disappointment")

Q: Should I get a new kitten?

A: Reversed King of Pentacles ("corruption, using means to achieve the desire end, vice, avarice, unfaithfulness, and old and vicious man, peril, danger, thriftlessness")

Q: Are you (Tarot Deck) mad at me?

A: Reversed Two of Wands ("sadness, trouble, restraint caused by others, loss of faith, unexpected surprise")

So at this point, I apologized and ran my Rose Quartz around and around the deck. I patted them, rubbed them, and sent all my apologetic energy toward them. I then asked if they accepted my apology and I was granted a card that meant "affection."

So, again, I asked the question:

Q: Okay, so would it be best if I bring a cat into the apartment, whether it be a new kitten or one of my cats from Tahoe?"

A: XX Rejuvenation ("atonement, judgment, the need to repent and forgive, the moment to account for the manner in which we have used our opportunities, rejuvenation, rebirth, improvement, development, promotion, effort that ends in just reward, the desire for immortality, legal judgment, one should carefully consider the effects of present actions on other persons.")

I am still mulling over the meaning of that particular card.

In other news, I've been trying to brainstorm a creative idea to use for my tutoring project. I have to answer three major questions in a creative presentation. An example we were told was a Geology tutor who used the analogy of a stone in a river (being a student) and the current (being the tutor). The current had to be just right to get the stone down to the delta and become a polished gem.

So I am trying to come up with an analogy that pertains to Anatomy. At first, I wanted to use the digestive system; the tutor being the food, and student being the body and only taking the essential nutrients or "knowledge" out of the food and using them to grow. But then it turned out that eventually, the student would shit me out and I decided that was a horrible analogy.

So now I am going to try and use the circulatory system and see where that goes. At least that way, I end up being the "heart" or passion-pusher and not the fecal matter. ;)