Fear.

This summer has been good for me. I've been through a lot of ups and downs, all with the perspective of myself. It's appropriate that I started off my days reading a book titled "The Last Time I Was Me." I always have much more personal growth in the summer, something I think I can blame on my firey Sagittarian birth day.

One theme of the whole summer has been my ability to feel comfortable alone. This was ultimately the loneliest summer in Honey History. I've been living completely on my own the whole time, had no best friend in my town, had to make a whole new group of friends, and force myself to get past my hesitation and leap into the unknown. It's quite possibly been thing that could have ever happened to me.

Today I realized that my fear of being alone is gone. I don't have the sickness in my stomach anymore. Although, I will admit that it's not something I see in my near future, I would accept it. Putting myself in a hypothetical situation, I can actually visualize looking forward to it because of some of the positive things I have experienced this summer.

I finally feel independent. I feel like I have many outlets and not just one anymore. If one outlet blew, the others would back me up. It took a lonely summer to figure it out, and I am so glad it happened.

I've continuously been in a relationship the past 6 and a half years (not with the same person). People always told me, "You need time to be alone and be by yourself." I never really understood why. I get it, now. It's not a bad thing. Its making time to love yourself and enjoy yourself so that when someone else wants to enjoy YOU, YOU wont be an issue.

I just have a lot of thoughts going through my head right now. I can sense that my future is changing. Something is going to happen (if it already hasn't) and the wind in my sails is about to change. I have prepared and I have trained and I will face my challenge head on with a strength I didn't have before.

Don't be afraid. Just do it.

If my life were Harry Potter...

If my life were Harry Potter, Voldemort just decided to stop his nonsense and become Ghandi.

Do you know how good that feels? To feel the relief? The joy? The understanding? To feel the anger and frustration leave my body? I don't think I have felt this good about moving on from something ever!

I may have been last on the list and it may have been a text message I wish I could frame, but it doesn't matter. The only thing that does is that it happened and it was there and I am taking it as it is. Who can complain about that?

I feel light as a feather...like I finally feel complete. I can finally feel happy. It's so ridiculous and totally retarded that I needed such validation...but who ever said it was easy?

I am so thankful. :) I wish all of you the same feelings I feel today.

A way to bring money into your life!

Hey guys! I wanted to share something. It's taken me a few months to really get into it, but I believe it works! My mom taught me this, and now I am going to teach you!

This is a method used to bring money into your life. So far, its worked pretty well for me. Call what you want, but this really works! You have to believe in it!

Here's what you do:
You check out all the dollar bills you have (just ones). There will be a number on each like the ones circled here:

This is a number 11. Each dollar bill is numbered from 1-12. Your job is to find these through collecting and paying for stuff in cash. You cannot receive these from someone who knows this method, you must EARN them! 12 is the easiest to find. 3s, 8s, and I think 10s are hardest.

Once you've collected all 12, fold them up in order and store them in your wallet or purse so you don't use them. Their energy will bring you money! Try it for yourself and tell me what you think! :)